I'm gone for good.

man, the past year and half have been nothing short of something else. When I tkae a look at myself I have changed so much..and not in a positive way. I used to be a lot more optimistic and happy go lucky. Certain things and people have really changed me from the person that I was to the person I am now. This handful of time has been full of soooo many downs it's hard for me to think of any up's..It is so hard not to think pessimistically. I mean I am positions in I never thought I would be in ever. My school situation isn't at all what I wanted it to be but I'm glad that I now know what I'm going to be doing. As far as high school goes...it doesn't. It is really hard for me to stay a full day..I been doing A LOT better trust me but it is so hard. My entire high school career has been nothing like the "high school experience" and it's surely not going to end that way either. From this point to July I'm only holding on to one thing and that is leaving. I need a change of surroundings and I feel like I am going to leave everyone [which is not many] behind completely. I don't feel the need to really keep in contact with anyone once I'm gone. When I leave I'm gone and I'm gone for good.