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i tend to find myself on the outside looking in when it comes to the "love of money", mainly because I find myself on the polar opposite end. I utterly hate money, and honestly if I could live sufficiently and the way that I would like to I would live without it but of course that is completely impossible. There's the wordly issues about money and how its something that people kill eachother over and that's bad enough...But for me it's kind of simple..When I sit back and I think to myself "what is really worth me spending money on?" and in doing so I come up with nothing. When it comes down to clothes and all of that stuff like yeaa I love to look nice at all times but like I really have a lot of clothes as is and wonderful but I'd like to think that I dress nicely and like what do I really need to get dressed for? don't let this make you think I look like a bum because that's not me I haven't even worn sweats to school in yeeaars ! But back to the lecture at hand like what do I need new clothes for? To go kick it with the same damn people I see all the time? to go to school where I feel no need to impress anyone? Currently I find money as the source of all my headaches, it is so straining and I just hate the fact that something I hate so much I cannot possibly live without. I mean just think about how much money rules YOU, many of your goals all revolve around it and you spend your whole life working for it and how it really grants you happiness no matter how much you try and front like it doesn't.  Isn't it ironic how money was created by man yet man lives by the dollar? I know it drives me crazy how I lust so much for something that is the one thing that I can honestly say I truly despise with a passion and I can never eliminate it from my life. idk maybe if I become filthy stinking rich in life I won't care anymore?